Medicine Baby began in May of 2001 after a Shamanic journey with a South American plant mixture called Ayahuasca, in May. Ayahuasca is a combination of medicinal plants that grow in the Amazon jungle that has been used by Shamans for thousands of years to invoke and open their spiritual vision. It was the first time I had ever experienced this tea and was expecting a euphoric awakening of my consciousness. Instead I was taken into the shadow side of my self.

My journey began with a vision of an angel. It spoke and suggested I make my intention to "know myself." I set my intention and lay down to spend the day going deep inside. All throughout the journey it felt as though there were spirits rolling my head from side to side, so I could see different aspects of myself. My vision became a panoramic view of my life, showing me how the tension of my mind was constricting my spirit and my body. I could see my fears and how they've controlled my existence here on Earth. I saw the childhood patterns of how so very, very hard I try to do everything right and how that stress has hindered my freedom.

As the journey ended I was brought back into present time and I looked around at the others in the group who seemed to all be in a state of bliss. I greeted the sunset trying to be optimistic and still trying to do it right, yet I couldn't ignore my disappointment of going from the vision of the angel and my expectations, to reliving many of the stressed out corners of my mind. My journey was over and I hadn't received what I had been expecting. I truly feel I received a revelation of awareness into the nature of my fears, self-doubts, and judgments. I was hoping for something much more great and wonderful to be shown to me, I wanted to remember who I really was as a spiritual being.

We did the journey on ancient ceremonial land in the Malibu Mountains where I lived at the time. As I walked around the beautiful land, I heard a voice in my head that told me I should start a painting. I walked back to my studio/house and began to prepare to paint. I bowed in reverence to a bust I had of Nefertiti and she bowed back twice with her eyes. My energies heighten in a bit of a shock at this and thought I'd better get to painting, I was obviously still feeling the effects of the medicine.

I prayed and burned sacred essences to clear the area and call in High energies of Light to assist me, as I do in my ceremonial practices to begin a painting. I especially used the sound vibrations of my didgeridoo. I started by using the colors of white, yellow, and bronze, on the base of the painting. A few people from the journey came walking up to my studio, one girl's three-year-old son joined us too and soon we were all painting and being creative. I added some turquoise at the suggestion of Gabriel, the three year old. Again the voice spoke to me and said, my journey would not be over until the painting was complete. I remember thinking, a bit sarcastic, well this better be a masterpiece to make that journey worthwhile.

 
As the others who journeyed with me began to visit my studio before the painting was finished, it was looking very abstract in content and drew a similar comment from everyone, "that's what I saw in my journey!" I told them, "Well maybe I'm painting all of your journey's because this is not what I saw in the depth of pain I've held within me that manifested in my journey. I mentioned what I was told about my journey not being over until the painting was complete. A few people commented that I should stop now because it was already looking finished to them. I knew I was not done. I finished the painting in November of 2001 and felt a huge new shift coming into my life. The awareness I had been seeking from my journey was now evolving from within.

Had I taken the advice of others I never would have experienced the emotion or the mystical magic that Medicine Baby brought to me. I had never experience such a state of bliss in creating a piece of art, up until now. I had many spiritual epiphanies throughout the process of painting this piece.
I painted an integral part of Medicine Baby after September 11th. One day like many others during this time, I was making Prayers of peace for the world and using my didgeridoo while painting. I blew vibrations of love into the center of Creation on the painting. I did this for a very long time and went into a deep trance; suddenly I found my mind wondering into very dark areas. Shocked that I could do this while I was Praying for peace was beyond me. Intent on transforming this energy, I never stopped playing, I continued to love even in the darkness and bring my attention back to the Light. Symbolically and energetically I had made a full complete circle through Light and dark and back to light again. Feels like us and our journey here on Earth.

 

At one point during my Praying and playing the didgeridoo after this full circle was complete and I was back to the flow I had started with, I stopped in my tracks, almost falling backwards in my chair. Emotion, deep feelings of... I tuned into the feeling again in search for a word, which can describe this experience. I'm stirred, inside my heart is opened with a huge expansion. I have tears, I can see the brightest sparkles of lights when I close my eyes, but I can't seem to find a word or phrase that could honor or do justice to this experience.

The same thing happened when I wanted to share this enlightening information after the experience. I had realized WE ARE ALL ONE. I cried when I felt how insignificant and petty all my jealousies, and self-pity were. I wanted to run and tell everyone especially since this was just after September 11th , I wanted to lighten their hearts, but once I tried to put it into words the power of the epiphany was not there. I understood then that everyone must feel this experience for them selves. I know that it is truth and now I know I can call upon this memory and feel it for myself, even if there are no words to express it to others.

The Goddess's in each corner represent the four elements of Creation and the Four Cardinal directions. The Goddess who represents the Earth is African. She is holding a tree as she sends her rhythmic soul energies into the center of Creation. The Goddess who represents Water is an Asian Mermaid swimming into the center with the sea turtle and dolphins to bring their medicine to the new Creation. The Goddess Helvetica is Caucasian and she represents the element of Fire, as she is holding a pillar of flame and rides with the elephant and the lion. The Goddess of Air is a Native American who is pregnant with possibilities for our new Creation. She is sending golden pieces of magic to assist the Medicine Baby in fulfilling his Great Spirit mission. All races are working together for the good of the whole.

The eagle delivers higher vision and the responsibility and power of becoming much more than we appear to be now. The seahorse symbolizes the male role in the birthing process as the male seahorse carries the babies until their birth. In the sky is a spirit buffalo hunt, which brings abundance back to the awakened people of Earth.

The baby boy in the center represents the child, soft in his innocence of the male, which is needed for recognizing the feminine in her wisdom and healing the Earth. This unity brings peace back to Creation on Earth. He is decorated with a crown and jewels that ordain him as the chosen one who sends golden Heart energy into the center of our new Creation. His aura manifests as butterfly wings, which are aligned with the rainbow colors of the Chakra. There is probably no other insect or animal that represents the process of transformation and shape shifting more than the butterfly. He teaches us that growth and change do not need to be traumatic and he assists our spiritual ability to transmute any energy back into Love. At the bottom right you will see the back of the Medicine woman who dreams the image in her imagination, into reality. It is I, watched over by hawk and falcon guardians to offer their help to bring new life to our creation, "Medicine Baby". The Humpback Whale brings in ancient knowledge, our record keeper here on Earth coming to assist in this new Co- Creation.

We have critical problems in America today and humanity faces challenges of enormous proportions, the survival of our species. A sacred understanding of all life is needed, our collective dedication and intent for love and healing to serve and support life is needed. Look for the leader within your self; following anyone into cynicism or anger will only lead us away from healing. Medicine Baby has come to remind us of spiritual law and to help heal the relationship between the tribes of human souls and hearts.