The Guardians are Spirits Beings who began coming to me when I was a young teenager. The stress level in my life had escalated to a high point with my father and I, and these visits were explained away as just that, stress. I had no reference at thirteen for any other explanation. Whenever the loud humming would begin, my body tingled in electric shocks without the pain and I would freeze in a chill of fears. I was not able to move until the sensations stopped. I was paralyzed, my mind could think clearly, I knew I was awake, but it felt like I was trapped in a bad dream. I was terrified to lie down.

By my late teens, the visits had become more and more frequent. My emotions had begun to surface, recalling the traumas from my childhood. Overwhelmed, every thing felt like it was too much for me to bear. I was afraid I was going crazy and I think I was.
At eighteen years old, while in a Psychiatric ward for trying to commit suicide I had another visit, this time a cold wind came with it. This spirit threw me into a traumatic trance as I ran through the halls of the hospital, wild in my search for peace of mind and heart. My display of fright got the attention of a young doctor. In a panicked desperate plea I told the therapist what had been happening to me for years. God blesses us with angels when we really ask for help.

The young therapist I had chosen was quite advanced spiritually and he suggested that I try not to be in fear when the sensations come upon me, but instead to relax into it and see what is really going on. He suggested I open my eyes, look around, and see what's happening. He taught me biofeedback, which is a relaxing technique that helped me put myself into an alpha brain wave state. I finally felt like I had some direction, something to focus on that possibly could help me.

I practiced everyday loving the exploration of my consciousness. I learned I could bring myself into this theta state in less than five minutes. Then, when I was in this state, the humming and the tingling sensations would begin. I would talk myself through it and tell myself not to be afraid. I opened my eyes and everything in the room was multiplied into some kind of weird quadruple vision.

Every time I experimented in this way I could feel and see three very tall Beings standing more to my right down towards my feet. I now call them the Tall Ones. They don't appear to have faces, or feet, but they wear robes, and their bodies are translucent. Even then "they" didn't frighten me, they seemed to just be watching me, like guardians. Their energy was calm and peaceful, and I knew they would not hurt me. I felt comforted by them and even though I still always needed to talk myself through the fear of the humming sensations, I welcomed the visits.

For years, seeking desperately for some common place, I spoke about these sensations and Beings with various people. Most people looked at me like I was emotionally disturbed, out of my mind and even then I doubted myself. Some said it sounded like I was soul traveling, or having out of body experiences, terms I had never really believed could be real before this. I found only one other girl at the time, which had the same experiences and fear. I was able to share with her the biofeedback technique and of going into it not being afraid.

In my early Twenties I had a frightening experience with another Being that came to me while I was having one of the humming vibration sensations. He was a different body type, short and stalky. He stood leaning right over me focusing on my heart it seemed. He was not like the Tall Ones. The Tall Ones never came uncomfortably close. I didn't like him at all. I fought him with all of my might, until I was actually able to sit up. Never had I been able to move in this paralyzed state before. What does one do with the unknown? I stopped welcoming the sensations after that. They periodically tried to come over the years, but when they did I was able to shut them down quickly.

Years later in my life, I began searching out ancient shamanic healing techniques. I learned to use the drum in journeywork and often by myself alone in my house, I would drum myself into journeys where I once again met up with the Tall Ones. It felt like a warm reunion, their calming peaceful loving energy comforted me again. I could feel them softly brush up against me actually touching me for the first time. I began to meditate regularly as well and practice with a technique called Breath of Fire, the Tall Ones again appeared and this time communicated with me. They told me they were guardians and guides, from the Star Nation. They thanked me for allowing them to work with me and for being so brave when I was a young teenager. They told me we were ancient relatives and together we are working to evolve consciousness and each other. They are helping us to remember to hear and create a new vibrational sound together. They said we are not separate and through our evolving, that transformation will occur. We have come to awaken in you the true knowledge.

As I began to show my painting the "Guardians" to the public, I found many people who recognized the Tall Ones, and have had memories or experiences with them as well. We are all eventually finding a common place with each other. We have grown up in so much negative programming, science doesn't support us, and our small little minds can't begin to logically explain these strange paranormal experiences, our Creation, and the Universes. Yet the Guardians are watching over us, encouraging us to keep in our Hearts, feel into and speak our own Truth, and surrender to God. We will make the shift and remember our Light.